Why I Cut My Hair: @iVallieWallie
Written by: @iVallieWallie
I guess you can say I didn’t decide to cut my hair, life told me to! Lol In October of 2012 I was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma Stage 3 Cancer and at the time I had almost shoulder length permed hair and I loved it! So I thought. Through my battle with cancer, the medicine and the ‘baby’ chemotherapy I was on (and possibly the stress) was making my hair grow, and that among other things kept my spirits up. However, in the spring of 2013 I needed a Stem Cell Transplant which involved what I called the ‘bad’ chemo. At first I was heartbroken, I was 20 years old, in college, and self conscious, my hair was a big deal to me. It helped defined me. So at the time I prayed that my hair wouldn’t fall out. Every day for the entire process of my transplant I sent up a little prayer to keep my hair.
In the end my hair lasted up until the last 3 days of my transplant process. When it all came out, I cried at first, but I knew that I wouldn’t let being bald define me. I used my baldness as an excuse to shop for scarves and even a wig. In the end I realized that I really love the natural me. For me, putting on a wig was me trying to be something I’m not and I could never bring myself to wear one out, and I bought 3. Even one with a lace front!
It took about 3-4 months for my hair to start growing back and in that time I came to accept being completely bald, I would do my makeup get dressed up and go out without a scarf on my head and feel relieved! I’ve always believed that a smile is a woman’s best accessory, but it has to be a smile that starts from within. I was finally at a place where I was happy with how I look! When the hair did grow back I was truly in LOVE!
I loved how the short baby hairs laid around my face and all the compliments I got from having a low hair ‘cut’! (I rarely had the heart to correct people and let them know I didn’t actually cut it.) Although I loved my short hair, I let it grow out for 2 reasons, 1) I was scared to go to a barber and 2) I wanted to see what it would be like to go natural. Long story short being natural didn’t work for me because I dislike curly hair on me, always have. And I was too impatient to let it grow long enough to get a blow out, so I permed it! I figured a permed short cut would work because I was used to permed hair and I loved how short hair looked and I figure it was the closest thing to cutting my hair all off. However, that lasted for only a month, I hated having to curl it every day.
I realized that being bald thanks to cancer made me lazy, and falling in love with my short hair when it grew back in showed me that I didn’t need hair to be beautiful or to look good. With this being said, I asked my male friends and girls I saw with low hair cuts… What do you tell your barber? Do barbers like questions? Can I show him pictures? Lol In the end I found me barber that does appointments, love pictures, and listens to all of my questions lol.
So I guess you can say I was 22 when I decided to go back to a low hair cut, and ever since then I have never looked back. I love the freedom it gives me. Granted, I still wash and condition it to keep it looking healthy, but all I have to do is brush and moisturize it! To me my hair cut helps me stand out, and ever since grade school I have always used my hair as a way of expressing myself. (I’ve dyed it every color of the rainbow, and I had a head full of gray hair)
For any woman that wants to cut her hair, I say go for it, remember its just hair, as long as you take care of it, it will grow back. Even if it doesn’t.. so what! Your hair isn’t what makes you beautiful, the confidence you have in yourself does. As long as you truly feel beautiful, people will see that, and that is all that matters. Besides a haircut is soooo much cheaper than almost every other alternative. =]